Well well, another year is almost over. Just a few hours left over here in Finland and then boom – 2015. This year has been quite eventful, a lot of up’s and down’s. But I’d like to thank all the people who have somehow got lost here to my blog. I never thought anyone would read this so this means a lot 🙂
Should I continue blogging in 2015 about my boring life? Who knows. Feel free to share an opinion on that.
Personally I don’t really have any special new years-celebrations but it will be spent with family and probably watching a whole lot of movies. Doesn’t have to be anymore complicated than that if you ask me.
Happy new year to you all! See you next year 🙂 ❤
Almost 4 years ago I stood in this same garage and couldn’t wait for my mopedlicence. Now I’m hardly 2 weeks of being 18 and dad has got me a freaking car. I haven’t really quite understood that I am actually gonna start driving soon.
So earlier today I finally bought a tablet-computer because I’ve wanted one now for a very long time. I never had many demands on how it had to be like so when I found this one, perfect purse-size and it included a case and JBL-headphones, didn’t cost a lot and I love it. Also bought a new SD-card for my phone with 32GB memory on it. What I’m gonna do with it, I don’t know but I thought I’d just play the YOLO-game. Either way, I love this thing.
As I am 18 in 18 days, I’ve been thinking of fufilling a little dream of mine I’ve had for a long time and that is to get a small tattoo on my wrist that means a lot to me. And in my case it’d be two arrows crossing.
For me that symbolises my typical finnish lone wolf personality. Since it is considered a symbol of war, for me itd basically means to remember to stand up for mysef and kind of be my own warrior.
So that is one of the things I’m hoping to do in 2015
Today has actually been a very relaxing day. Probably because I slept most of it.
So basically what I’ve been doing today is sleep, eat, went for a little walk a while, watched some movies and YouTube-videos and now I’m here. Yes, I know. Very productive. In my defense it’s Sunday.
I have like 1 1 /2 week left of my holiday break and no plans. But my I guess you don’t really have to have plans when you’re on break. So I plan on just taking it easy. Anything or nothing could happen. Remains only to find out.
I also have a new years resolution on my sleeve now that 2015 is coming up. One that I’m actually gonna keep. I’m gonna get either a gym-card or find a really good home-workout. Gotta have a back up plan incase one of them fails.
Also, just found this adorable videos of these two kids who get to open one christmaspresent early: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bMfhZkq1qWs
Last but not least, I have never been really into quite typical girly things as much as others might be but this perfume bottle is the coolest thing I’ve ever seen, haha. Didn’t know it was gonna look like that when I opened it. Its almost like I can’t stop looking at it. I have never been this fascinated by a perfume bottle before. Its weird, haha.
Today was a fun day. Can’t complain about that. But I, have as usual, hit my evening blues where I get disgusted by what I see when I look in the mirror, Mostly because in most food situations I have no self control. And it sucks. It sucks that the world has come to this. But as many girls, it has its hold on me as well, even though I sometimes pretend I don’t care about it, I still do deep inside. So now because I had a pizza earlier (junkfood confession) and other stuff because its holiday-times, I’m sitting here in something I call a ‘fat-hoodie’ and feeling really terrible. I’ve never told anyone this. But now I am because I know I am not the only one who hates their bodies because of society’s bodyideals. So yeah…
Okay, yeah, I know and I’m sorry there has been two sad posts in a row and I promise better ones are to come. Just needed to vent.
PS. Jennifer Lawrence is queen ❤
So this is going to be a bit of a more serious post. A rant actually.
I was reading a blog of a person I actually know and I noticed I was mentioned quite a few times. By name too. Don’t know why cause this person used other peoples initials when she was talking about them.
Me and this person may not have the best relationship even though were related, and a thing happened in the past that I doubt she understands hurt me pretty badly but I did my share of bad stuff too. But why I have not wanted to speak to them so much is because I never got an apology even though I realised my mistake and apologized. I was and am always the one people think should apologize. Do you understand how beaten down I feel by that? And now I feel that slightly more. I saw a post about her geting surprised that I asked her to come along with us on the day-trip to Helsinki last summer. Thats nothing to be surprised about. I wanted to be the better person and make up because she never gave me any kind of sign that she wanted to. Because apparently everything is always my fault..
I don’t know.. I’m just so frustrated that people can’t be straight forward. And I thought things were gonna work out better between us now. Well, we’ll see how that works out..
Man, another one of those feelings when you think to yourself ”Can you trust anybody anymore?”. Must be the millionth time this week..
This is basically my mind at the moment: