Social anxiety. A small little disorder that I feel is ruining my life little by little.
For example, on rare occasions when I’m at a social gathering I just have this constant desire to get out of there, and when I do, I feel terrible afterwards. Like people are judging me for ditching them or something. And I really wish I could tell them what’s really going on but I never do because I feel like they wouldn’t understand so instead I make up an excuse of why I have to leave. And then after the door is closed behind me, I feel like huge wave of judgement is invisibly splashing at me. Yeah, not the most pleasant thing in the world.