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8 Un-Girly Confessions #2

Hello world

I thought I’d go a bit nostalgic while trying to bring this blog back to life by bringing back something I wrote back in January 2015. I made this post called 8 Un-Girly Confessions because being the tomboy I am, there are just some things that are seen as typicaly girly, that I can’t exactly relate to, and most of them are based on the Just Girly Things-photos on Tumblr.

And I thought it’d be fun to make a Part 2. Here we go 🙂

  1. I have never owned anything by Apple
  2. I have no skills when it comes to make-up
  3. ..also, not too sure what a bathbomb is 
  4. I still don’t have an Instagram-account
  5. High heels are not my thing. I always end up looking like a drunken giraffe walking in them
  6. I’ve never watched an episode of Keeping Up With The Kardashians. But I know what it is – because internet
  7. Lipgloss is awful. Not one time have I not got my hair stuck in it
  8. If you ask if I’ve seen a popular movie.. I probably haven’t. (Can’t tell you how many people this annoys)

So these are my other 8 un-girly confessions and I’m sure there are a lot more of them. I figured I’d try to find my inspiration to blog because my blog has been either echoing silence lately or been updated with some random update that no one really cares about so I’m gonna do more things like this instead just to keep myself motivated.

Have a good day!

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sunday thoughts.

Hello world and happy Sunday!

Today just flew by and then it’s Monday tomorrow again. And I have a test at 8.15 in the morning tomorrow. Yay.. So in other words, a big part of my weekend was spent studying legal text. I know, sounds tons of fun right? Haha

I’ve been feeling stressed for weeks now, and I can’t seem to get rid of it. Usually the sauna calms me down on Saturdays but lately it’s just been holding on, so I don’t really know what this is. Perhaps it’s the fact that life is so very different than it was last year, that a lot of things have happened and are still yet to happen so maybe my system hasn’t really adjusted to it all yet. But hopefully I’ll be able to get past this as well as I’ve always managed to somehow. Luckily I’ll have a day off on Friday and the entire week after that. Feels quite needed right now.

Also on Sundays, why does it always feel like the stress of Monday creeps up a day in advance. Like aren’t Sundays supposed to be mellow and cozy or some shit? If this is growing up, I don’t like it, haha

At least I got something else done today too, as it seems it’s become a tradition that I make dinner on Sundays. And I don’t mind 🙂

So this time, homemade burgers happened:

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I better go pack now as it is back to the dorm once again tonight.

Alright, that’s about all I have for this day as my life is not the most eventful at the moment but I wanted to write a little something anyways.

Have a good day and a good start of the new week 🙂

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better day today.

Hello world

Tuesday it is.

I finished school about 20 minutes ago and now I’m just in a café killing time til my friend gets here. Drinking coffee, that nobody should be suprised by, haha. We have beautiful weather today which puts me in such a better mood than I was in yesterday, but that was probably because it was Monday. But today is actually quite okay. I also have a day off tomorrow which is pretty damn great 🙂

But that’s my little day-update for today. Have a good one! 🙂

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my heart is blue.

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So I thought I’d write this little casual post over a little realization I had earlier this week, while scrolling through the emojis. I came across the blue heart and thought to myself ”If my heart has a spiritual color, it would be exactly like this one”. Plus, it kind of also matches my eyes so that’s a bonus. I suppose this post will be a little philosophy, of sorts.

Blue is the color of the sea and sky, which are two things I find very calming. The color is also considered to symbolize stability which is something I’ve started to achieve after all my years of depression and anxiety, that are finally starting to wear off. I’m kind of like in a calm after the storm-mode, which blue also represents as it is believed to produce a calming effect.

The color is also associated with health, healing and understanding which is something that I’ve also started to learn. Self care is always important as is understanding someone who is going through similar stuff as I have. There’s no need to play a therapist but a little bit of understanding is never wrong.

Personally, I also think it represents solitude and independence as the sea usually is also quite a deserted, calm place as the sky also is. I guess nobody can 100% say what the colors really stand for to every last detail so it’s up to oneself of how you can relate to it.

And these were some of my thoughts about that.

Have a good day!

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Pointless judgement

Hello world!

Today I’ve realized which people care and which people don’t. And it’s sad that we as humans, sometimes put more effort into trying to please the people that don’t eventually care as much back, rather than the ones who do. And I, myself, have lived in that state of thinking way too long now.

Take today for example, as I felt anxious about what people thought of me. And then when I realized that, I got a little bit annoyed at myself and started to think reasonably, that how the hell can the opinion about me of people who don’t even know me as a person, matter in the end? That’s right. It doesn’t. No logical explanation because judging a person based on their appearance is completely pointless.

Now I’m not claiming that I’ve never done this. Cause unfortunately I have. I suppose it is a very common thing to do in middle- and secondary school, cause that’s unfortunately where it starts. But I’d like to think that I can stop that completely as soon as possible as I have started to change my way of thinking. Attempting to get rid of those childish ways cause after all I turn 20 next year and that is a while away from middle- and secondary school, so it’s better to leave it all behind. Cause I’m a person who believes that what goes around, comes back around. And that’s probably why there was a ton of drama in secondary school too cause everyone thought they were sneaky but eventually it comes back around and bites everyone in the ass. You can’t win.

So I guess what I’m trying to say here is that being nice always pays off and judgement and things like that mostly just creates trouble. And with everything going on in the world right now, being nice to other people can even make the slightest difference. Cause in the end we all share this world so we should learn to get along.

Damn, this goes deep now. But I just wanna remind that not all hope is lost, unless we let it get that way.

Alright, that’s all I have for today. Have a good day 🙂

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Hello once again, world!

Whoah, its been a while but oh well. Here I am, once again, so I thought I’d update a little something here.

What’s new with me?  Well my life continues quite the same as usual. I have clear goals I wanna achieve and I am doing what I can to achieve them. I try to take time off to myself and at least try to relax, as my skin has started to suffer a bit from my constant worrying about stupid, pointless things so one of my goals is to focus on myself a little more. I’m planning on continuing my oil-painting as I have found that very calming. Maybe even go shopping for new canvases and brushes, which would be great.

In other words, February has started and I’ve had quite a busy start of the new month. We had open house day at school, prepared all week for it and today I’ve finally been able to come home, and hopefully spend a peaceful Sunday tomorrow. It was an okay day though even if it was stressful. Especially this morning was a bit slow cause there was not much motivating about getting up at 7 on a Saturday. Not for me at least.

As for next week, I luckily only have school on Monday and Tuesday next week and 5 days off in a row after that. That sounds so fantastic right now as I feel very stressed at the moment, and even if I like being productive, getting things done and can focus under pressure – I still don’t like stress one bit.

What else is new? Well I recently have started seeing a person who’s very special to me. More on that later 🙂

I  also cut my hair last week. I am so relieved I did cause my hair was quite damaged and had split ends. Even went in 3 different shades cause I’ve dyed it so much over the years so I thought it would be time for a little refreshment. And I really think it suits me better than the long hair, doesn’t it? 🙂

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Alright, that’s about all I have for today. Have a good day! 🙂