I’ve managed to crawl out of my cave of sickness that I’ve been in since Tuesday. Hopefully it stays that way because being sick is always twice as bad as you remember it to be – every time.
I met up with a tutor this morning, to discuss further studies after the current one and I think I have a lot of valid options. So I am currently sitting in a sofa somewhere in our school because I have a few hours to kill before my lessons actually start. For now I am just sitting here and doing some work, or if anything, I’m really good at looking busy at the moment. I could, and would have loads of time to walk over to the library and sit there and work, but its not very motivating when the snow decides to come down like we’ve never seen it before. So yeah.. no thanks.
Okay, time to get back to the actual work.
And I also want coffee…
What a surprise, haha
Once again everything feels very stressful. I have a lot of work from school and in 3-4 months I’m supposed to graduate. Phew..
My last months consist of workexperience and after that I’m supposed to be done. I have honestly had no time to think about that because time seems to go so damn fast nowadays, and I dont like it. Even my calendar looks chaotic. Worst of all, spring is almost here. Yeah, I am still not the most fond of that season.
What a negative post this turned out to be but we cant always sugarcoat things in life
School starts a little later today, so I had some time this morning roaming around on YouTube. Which resulted in me finding a video of women finding out how much money their makeup bag is worth. So I got the immediate idea to do the same and find out just how much money is in my own bag. And it was a lot more than I expected, cause I didn’t think I had a lot of stuff in there. Well I should have checked because I don’t really understand why I have two or more of the same thing. Yet again I proved myself wrong because it is quite a long list…
My every day products are:
Rimmel London Oh My Gloss-lipgloss 2x 5,52€
Rimmel London Concealer 9,90€
Lavera Compact Powder 12,95€
Lavera Liquid Foundation 16,95€
Essence Blush 3.09€
Essence Concealer 4.49€
Maybelline Mascara 12,90€
Maybelline Foundation 14€
Maybelline Compact Powder 14,90€
L’Oreal True Match Concealer 12€
L’Oreal Mineral Powder 16,90€
Max Factor FaceFinity Foundation 15,10€
Lumene Natural Code Eyeliner 7,30€
In Total: 164,80€
That’s a WHOLE lot more than I thought it was gonna be and I am actually not sure if I should be proud or disappointed in myself, haha. Because I am not the girliest of girls but I still managed to step quite a way over the 100€ scale that I thought I was under so… that’s something to be proud of, I guess, haha
Today started off well. Probably because I am always prepared to at least have good music to listen to in the morning while I head off, so that I at least have something positive if it turns out to be a shitty day. Maybe thats a bit strange but it works for me. I have also made waking up in time and a good breakfast as my priorities, instead of just pressing snooze as long as possible and quickly grabbing something on the go.
My day was fine, all until now. It’s 8 p.m. and my mind has just blasted off with stressful thoughts about upcoming things. And stress is the last thing I need right now. I hope I can calm myself down somehow, or fall asleep fast which would be great.
All in all I wish I wouldn’t be so good at overthinking things all the time. But maybe I can work off this bad habit somehow.
One thing that one may realize while scrolling through here, is that there are not many photos of me on here. And that might seem a little weird to some, as you’d think I’d wanna show who I am. But the thing is that I’d rather be the person behind the camera and I have had some problems with my appearance and such over the years, some more serious than now.
And the only reason why I am writing this right now is because I just posted a photo of myself on Instagram (yeah I’m back on there now) and I almost had a physical response and some sort of miniature panic attack and wanted to instantly delete it. And quite honestly, I don’t know why that is.
Its got me thinking how I rather post photos of something else on social media such as Instagram, Snapchat or even a Skype-profile picture. As long as its not of me, I feel comfortable. I guess I am so afraid of narcissism that it gives me anxiety. It’s so strange but I suppose its nothing to lose my shit over, but I hope I am not the only one with this cause that’d be pretty odd.
So this weekend didnt go as planned as I got sick so I had to skip open house day but its okay as I’m learning to not stress as much over things. Slow but steady.
Which meant I ended up staying inside all weekend bingewatching videos all of Saturday and today was no different. Interesting life, I know..
At some point it hit me to look up this very hyped norwegian tvshow called Skam, just to see what everyone was so into it for. And I get it now – I finished 2 seasons already in less than 48 hours. It was quite addictive. Been a long time since I’ve been that into a series.
And so it is Monday again tomorrow. I would like to advice you to go to bed early to feel refreshed tomorrow but I am lying awake here myself, it being almost midnight and I need to be awake at 6 am. Not the best of advice so dont copy me. Alright, good night, world 💎