It has been a while. But life got in the way.
You see, the thing is, I’ve got myself an apartment. I signed the contract today and my set moving date is July 1st.
I’ve thought about this, thrown it around in my head back and forth but now I’ve finally done it. It’s a new chapter in my life and I’m taking a new step into the unknown.
I’m excited but also slightly terrified. This is very new to me. I’ve had this on my mind a long time, and now it’s becoming reality.
Hope it goes well
Funny how life can take you from one situation to another.
Today my friend sent me a message saying “Hey. Serious question. How would you feel about going backpacking to Thailand in January?”
Obviously, being the wanderlust that i am, I had no doubt in my mind that I’m going. Think I would pass up an offer like this? Nah!
I know people will always try to convince you to stay home with all those “what if”-questions but sometimes you just have to do it. You just need to make it happen.
So if everything goes smoothly, it’s happening in January.
I graduate tomorrow. I’m getting my second degree. I had my doubts over time but I did it. I’m now gonna have two qualifications.
I graduated last year too. But this time, the future after is unclear. Last year when I graduated, I knew I would go a 4th year to complete my chef’s degree but this time, I don’t know what is gonna happen after summer. And that’s kind of terrifying, to be honest.
I have gone through education for 13 years now. For all those years, I’ve had a familiar routine for every day, always the same holidays and schedules to follow. This time there will be none of that.
And I know a lot of people who have already done this. Who are used to it by now and have been able to start their own lives already. So I guess its my turn. But there are just so many fears and thoughts bombarding my head at the moment. Cause it is scary. Not knowing what is ahead. And maybe I’m not supposed to know. Maybe it turns out okay. I wish I could stop thinking about it and just see what happens. But it’s difficult.
But even if I’ve had these thoughts, I have convinced myself that I am gonna be okay. I have made it through a lot so why not this too. At least that’s what I’m going for.