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I’m Vegetarian?

Hello blog

I’ve worked in the restaurant-business for about 3 years now. I see the same food all day. You can imagine getting bored, right?

And lately, I’ve subconsciously started to prefer vegetarian food. I, personally, just feel so much better from it. And I really love all the spice-combinations you can experiment with and it’s just so much more colourful. 

I am not completely vegetarian but I could easily do it. And I might focus on it completely in the future.

I also love how easy it is. Like this rice & vegetable-concoction I threw together

//R

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Hello from Oulu πŸ“

[Tuesday 9.5]

Hello blog

Haven’t updated in a while. But I’ve had some stuff going on. 

I got on a train today in order to get away from reality, even just for one day. Life has simply got too much so I booked a hotel up in Oulu. And possibly also because nordic hotel breakfasts are the best thing in the world.

Got here at 18.30 and checked in. The room is absolutely gorgeous. 

Then I went out to find some kind of grocery store cause I had not eaten since 1. But the store had a salad bar so it was all good πŸ™‚ 
I am not 100% familiar with this city but I’ve managed to find my way around. And for what it’s worth, I already feel way better 

//R

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So that happened..

Hello blog

So yesterday was eventful.. to say the least.

The day started off normal, got to work, did the lunch-shift, got out. Went to meet a friend for after work-drinks. We later on decided to go to the neighbour town to meet up with a friend around 9 pm. Everything was fine, got amazing pizza, good times. 

Fast forward to half past midnight, we went out, casually just driving around the town and headed for the Old Harbour. That’s where things got a little downhill as the car got stuck in mud – around 1 in the morning. I think we spent around an hour and a half trying everything we could to get it out but without success. So with our hands, shoes and the car soaked in mud, we decided to call a tow-truck around 3 in the morning. 

Luckily, the car was successfully pulled out and we got our sleepy selves home around 4 am. And if anything, we are one experience richer and can hopefully laugh about it in the future.

//R

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Hello May

Hello world and Happy May 1st

Our 16 year old cat wakes me up every morning at 7am with the loud song of her people – right outside my door til I either let her in or she manages to open it herself. 

This morning she has already had the time to invade my bed

..and move in to my handbag

But I’m not complaining cause I love her πŸ™‚ and I appreciate being able to spend this lazy morning with her cause I haven’t got anywhere to be today.

Very therapeutic πŸ™‚

//R

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Mental Exhaustion

Hello blog & Happy Saturday

I’ve had a bit of a drought here on the blog lately. I’ve felt a little brain-dead and I think it has to do with all these 6.30 mornings I’ve had and I’ve lost a lot of sleep. I do, however, have two days off coming up so I’m looking forward to that more than anything after I’ve had so much going on for the past weeks.

So maybe now would be a good time for a little chit-chat post.

I have been overthinking a lot lately, whether it’s been school, work or life in general. I have been really stressed out and thought only the worse when I’ve felt like crap, and that has Β only resulted in me feeling even worse. My main thought has been my applications and it’s felt like I am gonna fail it all because I have life getting in the way at the moment and there is not much time. It has consumed so much of thought, energy, has only caused me stress and misery and resulted in me completely forgetting to give myself a break. Because my mind has just gone ”you need to do this and you need to do this and hurry, hurry, deadlines coming up!” day in and day out. It has really taken some damage on my daily mood, my ability to focus at work and my overall health . And I’ve been diagnosed with mental exhaustion, which didn’t come as a surprise to me at all.

My skin is really dry, my eyes are acting up and my under-eye circles are not exactly the most pretty thing to look at so if anyone claims that stress isn’t visible, it is visible on me at least.

Don’t get me wrong, I am not encouraging anyone to not do anything but allowing yourself to utter exhaustion and letting something constantly beat your mind, is not good for anyone. One can only take so much and you should really respect your own limits.

For now, I do not know what the future is gonna hold, but that’s okay. I didn’t know it around this time last year either. I just need to stop overthinking cause it is just making everything seem much worse than it is. I know this, but I cant change it in the moment. Hopefully I can change that.

//R

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Life At The Moment

Hello

I’ve got a blog of echoing silence, still. No can do until I get my life sorted somehow to the point where I can feel somewhat stable – if such a moment is ever to come.

In the few posts I’ve made, I have seemed slightly (or more) rambling than usual. That is because some pretty quick changes have happened to my sleep cycle over the weeks, that I wasn’t prepared enough for so now I am trying to survive these 6 am mornings somehow. 

Who am I kidding, I press snooze like 2-3 times.

I’ve also got a thick pile of school work I was handed last week, that apparently need to be done in the middle of May. 

Thanks for the heads up…

My main focus at the moment is to try to survive all this in one piece so that I can get some clarity over how life is gonna look like in August/September. Cause at the moment, it is very unclear, as I have probably told every single person I’ve met at this point and possibly a million times on here as well. 

So I best go sleep before the rings under my eyes get any worse. 

//R

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Stress-coma | Tuesday 20.45

Hello blog

It’s me. Your stressed Finnish friend on the internet. Back at it again.
(that’s me trying to be hipster and cool. it didn’t work)

I am, as usual, caught between stress, studying, and my final weeks of my work-experience chapter. Which means for the following weeks there’s gonna be a lot of waking up at 6.45 and a lot of coffee. Although, that really isn’t new for me, haha.

I haven’t talked about it much but I attempted applying for university last month, three different ones to be exact. And I don’t have a very good feeling about it. Cause I cannot focus on it full time with the work I have left and my tutor suddenly giving me (literally) a bunch  more assignments that I need to finish by the end of May. So I don’t have a very good feeling about it. But if all else fails, at least I can say I’ve read a lot of books and I’ve got myself 2 qualifications in 4 years.

Today though, I feel like I am in something I’d like to call a stress-coma, where I have so much to do that I decide not to do anything cause I simply cannot focus. I need to get a grip tomorrow.

During the course of this week I need to get the following things done: complete the first week of the 5 weeks of work-experience I have left, go clear up some stuff at the school and clean out my locker there, do some assignments, read Jane Austen’s Mansfield Park (don’t know how that’s gonna go as I have got really bad at reading books), read a few articles, go to actual work on Sunday and most importantly, manage to get some sleep in between it all.

So all in all, I am quite a mess at the moment. Not a lot of free days but what needs to be done, needs to be done. There’s no way of knowing if you don’t even try so I’ll do my best.

Alright, a very messy post from my side but I’m gonna try to keep this blog alive somehow during everything else going on.

//R